掩饰？假装？强颜？硬撑? 我就是这样！

最近的我，心情总是有些异常，无论做什么事情都提不起劲，什么事情都做不好。我知道，霉运已经找上门来了。连续几天，心情都很不好！公司里，我以为自己已经把情绪隐藏得很好，假装没事戴上假面具就好，像平日一样配合大家谈天说笑。却不知道，原来强颜欢笑是很容易被看出破绽的，在谈笑中，突然听到同事慰问的一句话：“最近你是不是有什么心事？为什么感觉到你有点怪怪的？”听到后，真的有点惊讶！怎么突然这样问？看得出吗？面具已经被撕下了，真不可思议！最后唯有答了一句：“那有？”换了个话题，就带笑瞒过了。工事上，最近一直都很不如意，堆积如山的工作使我忙得喘不过气来，每天工作一直追着我跑！没办法，工作还是要做的，唯有硬撑！好累，真的好累！我好想这一切都马上停此，好想逃离现状！我可以歇一歇吗？

工作是如此，回到家后也一样，什么事情都不想做，不想理！唯有寻找唯一的娱乐，开启笔记本，上线检查，看看有什么新事件。这是唯一能够让我暂时忘记现状的方式！虽然心情低落，可是在线上，当有人找你聊天，对方看不到你的表情也不知道你的心情，对方聊什么都会去配合，如果不是要和对方聊心事，就别把坏心情带给对方。这是我的作风！而我也只有掩饰自己的情绪，用有心事的心和双手打出快乐的词句和对方聊天！毫不搭配，可是我却可以办得到！对！我就是这样！现在最流行的网上沟通方式，就是在交友网站上平面留言，你一句，我一句的还蛮有趣！朋友们一起说说话，讲讲笑，很喜欢这种感觉！至少可以让我把坏情绪暂时抽出来！没办法，我能做的就只有这样，安慰安慰自己。

其实，写到最后，我还是没有把我心里真正想说的写出来，我就是这样，不轻易让人知道自己的想法！是我不敢？不懂？还是，我习惯了？现在可以做的，就是让时间去经营一切，希望能够尽快的恢复正常！快回来吧，别这样了好吗？

You belong with me

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset.
She's going off about something that you said
'Cuz she doesn't, get your humor like I do...
I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
and she'll never know your story like i do

But she wears short skirts
I wear T-shirts
She's cheer captain
And I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up
And find what you're looking for
has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
been here all along so why can't you see, you
You belong with me
You belong with me

Walkin' the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey isn't this easy
And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you're fine
I know you better then that
Hey whatcha doing with a girl like that
She wears high heels
I wear sneakers
Shes cheer captain and
I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door
all this time how could you not know
Baby....
You belong with me
You belong with me

I remember you drivin' to my house
in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're about to cry
And i know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me...

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you see
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time
How could you not know
Baby you belong with me
You belong with me
You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me
You belong with me...

部落心情

今天在facebook上，看到有位朋友的牢骚，说他写了一个小时半就快完成的部落，因为电脑突然关机的关系，在一旋间前功尽弃。所以，现在我学聪明了，还是先写在Microsoft Word然后才把它粘贴上部落格，以免成为下一个受害者。哈哈！

其实写部落一直都不像是我会做的事情，因为写部落一直以来都不是我的风格，甚至是日记或者是日志也不是我会去写的，更不用说是写部落格了。还记得以前念书的时候，华文课是需要写日记的，而我每次都不知道要写什么，所以大部分交上去的都是随便想个题目就写的。记得有段时期，曾经受过朋友影响而尝试去写自己的日记，可也只是心血来潮，那阵风过了，就没有再写了。

虽然在求学时期还蛮喜欢写文章，马华英三种语言，无论是那种语言我都会尽量把最好的内容交出来。然后，让老师批改过后，很想看看自己写的文章到底可以拿多少分，而且很喜欢看到文章里没有任何错别字的感觉。是不是觉得我这样的举动有点怪呢？哈哈！写文章对我来说虽然是没什么问题，可是写部落就不同了，好的部落格是需要时间和精力去经营的。我想我应该不像是会拥有好部落的一个，因为通常都是三分钟热度，想写就写，如果不想写的时候，那我的部落格此不是要荒废了？

我总是不太了解自己，而且也不擅长把自己的心情完整的表达出来。就算是用言语表达也不见得可以做得很好，更何况是用字体来形容心情？如果你让我写文章，但却不用考量文章的真实度，那我可能还可以捏造一篇假设性文章，单凭想象就可以完成的，总比表达自己的心情来得容易吧！表达自己真的不是我的强项，我就是那么的差劲！

可是，常常看了别人的部落格，真的看到他们写部落那种有力的风格，他们的部落格能够影响他人。而有些人的部落格能够让人看了留下深刻的印象，因为有他们独特的风格和写法。有的人却是把生活上所发生的一切搬到部落格上，让读者们去了解他们的生活。而我也是因为看到其他人可以拥有那么棒的部落，所以才决定尝试在这里表达自己，别人能做到的，我一定也能做得到！

部落格往往也可能是某些人的避风港，发泄或者是倾诉的地方。而在我眼里，它将会是么？无论如何都希望我可以将我的部落格长久经营下去！加油吧！

Few words also good ma..

Hello there, this is the first time i write in my new blog here... Hmm, actually I'm lazy and still waiting for a good mood to write my first blog... But now, I started my blog with a very special and casual title... "Few words also good ma".. Neh, my ji mui lo, he told me don't be lazy, write few words also good ma... That's why I'm here now... But it's good, make me take off the lazy worm already... Thank u ya ji mui... Haha...

Hmm, first time here, don't know what should i write, just try to write as simple as it can... Coz wanna go oi oi liao... Actually, today also a special day, today's date is 10092009.. Isn't it special and meaningful? This is special, but i always look on those special day as normal day.. Work and sit in front of my laptop after work.. This so so so normal.. Everyday same action.. Haha.. Another meaningful day is coming, that is 20092009.. That is also first day of Hari Raya.. Happy lo, coz no need to work eh.. A lot of friends come back to hometown during that period.. What am i going to do that day? Celebrate? Treat ppl eat? Or a special normal day again? Haha.. Don't know... But really really hope to meet all of my friend.. Yeah, meet them one by one, meet whoever i wish to see.. Really hope so, very long to see again.. A date with you o..